Today was one of those days that I want to throw into the sea of forgetfulness and pretend never happened. By the time I had all of my children loaded up in the car and headed out of the house each and every one of us had shed tears, myself included. It was not even 9am. As I drove I put on some soft music and cried silently, trying to figure out what just happened and why all of my clever parenting books couldn’t solve the onslaught of challenges that sprang up between the hours of 6-9am. Really, I think that’s just too early to be required to use wisdom. Huh, maybe that’s why there was such foolishness? These kids need to sleep in!
I continued to drive, cry and pray and the thought came to me that today would be a great day to make brownies! Maybe I thought about chocolate because drinking wine on the way to Classical Conversations would be totally inappropriate? Either way, I quickly declared, “When we get home we are making brownies!” Little heads perked up, eyes opened wide and smiles spread across the faces of my sweet-toothed sweeties! It made me smile to see them smile and in that very moment the whole day turned around.
There is something about receiving a wonderful surprise when you know you deserve absolutely nothing that just makes GRACE come alive! And there is something about giving grace that is not deserved that allows you to understand the depth of Gods unconditional love for you…for me.
Don’t you love when God uses chocolate to reveal His love?
Bad day? Brownies!
- 2 sticks of pastured butter
- 2 cups of light brown sugar
- ¾ cups cocoa powder
- 1 teaspoon baking powder
- 1 teaspoon sea salt
- 1 teaspoon espresso powder (really makes the chocolate flavor stand out)
- 1 tablespoon vanilla extract
- 4 large pastured eggs
- 1-1/2 cup white wheat flour
- 2 cups of mini semisweet chocolate chips
- Note: Pastured butter and eggs have a deep, rich and creamy flavor. They are also higher in DHA which is great for brain health. The animals feeding off grass are not given feed containing soy, which is something I have a theory about. You certainly don't have to use pastured or pasture raised, but I'd say it's worth a try.
- Melt butter in a sauce pan
- Add brown sugar and whisk until sugar is bubbling for about 4 minutes.
- Stir in cocoa, baking powder, salt, espresso powder and vanilla extract and let cool until about as hot as a bath. Very warm, but not so much that you'll cook the eggs.
- Whisk the eggs and add.
- Add flour and chocolate chips. Stir to combine.
- Pour into a buttered 9x11" baking dish.
- Bake on 350 for 30min
Melt the butter in a saucepan over med-low heat. Add the sugar and whisk until fully incorporated. Heat the mixture until it bubbles, stirring occasionally.
In a separate bowl combine the cocoa, baking powder, salt, espresso powder and vanilla. Mix into the butter and sugar. Let cool until it’s no longer “hot” to the touch.
Then mix in the eggs (if your batter is too hot it will cook your eggs, so make sure you wait until it’s warm).
Put the flour and chocolate chips into the bowl you just emptied (you are the one doing the dishes, after all) and pour together into the decadent chocolate mixture that is practically begging you to spoon it over ice cream. Continue mixing and folding until the flour is fully incorporated.
>Spray a 9″ x 11″ backing dish with non-stick spray (I love Spectrum coconut oil spray!) or prepare with butter the old fashioned way. Pour in the batter and sing a little song from Willie Wonka’s Chocolate Factory, “There is no life I know living in a world of pure imagination…”
Then hand that spoon over to the child who caused you the most trouble that day! And smile a big “I love you even when you are a stinker”, smile. Grace!
Bake for 30min on 350 and cool on a wire rack for about 30min.
Slice everyone a generous piece. This is a lesson in grace, remember. Don’t be stingy!
Enjoy with a nice cold glass of raw milk! And when the kids are sleeping peacefully, have another little square with a glass of red wine